weight reduction!

Hmm...now i've got a very focus goal to achieve! weight loss! gonna start my work out schedule by next week!! tummy is not allowed! must be flat! and weight back to 46kg at least! moo kai shing! ganbatte!!!

PMS

Hmm...dunno if im having pms or not..sigh...im repeatedly back to the same stage..lotsa plans, lotsa things to do, keep writing "to-do" list..but then just sit back and dun want to move..just lie on bed or sit down watching drama, doing nothing..and yet inside the heart, i feel guilty that im wasting my time here..but yet another part of me just dun wanna do anything..feel like a zombie..but the worst is....im quite enjoying being a zombie..Oh my....kai shing, what the hell are u thinking??

Benjamin Button

Recently was busy...just simply busy blindly..the kind of busy that at the end of the day, u wouldnt know what u've accomplished and u felt that is a waste of time..was lazy as well..had been watching some drama series happily every night to let the time pass quickly and yet claiming myself being busy.. =S was watching this Benjamin button yesterday night..friends said it is a nice movie..after watching it, i don't find it nice..i find it sad sad sad..i pity Benjamin..would ppl say that he is special? weird? but his life is definitely a sad one..yes, fortunate enough to find a love one and have a lovely daughter...but at the end, he became a baby and cuddled to his wife..couldnt even speak a word and passed away silently..at that moment, i thank god for making me a NORMAL person.. though i have back pain almost at all time..but im fortunate to be NORMAL enough..to have a happy family..to have good friends..to have a not interesting job but secure..in a word, to be NORMAL..im really thankful for wat i have now..suddenly thought of my friend - bryan..he is the one who taught me to live life to fullest..so tat i wouldnt have regret or mayb less regret in life..bryan, i miss u a lot le..hope that u r well over there in vietnam!must tk good care of urself..ur wife here in malaysia is awaiting u to come back for ur big day in Nov! hmm..i need to start looking for some nice gift for ur wedding! oh ya..another thing i learnt from Benjamin Button...start writing down whatever i want to say in a journal or else i'll forget...words are powerful...in fact, magical.. =) maybe i should go buy a journal and carry it with me all time..blogs are difficult to maintain for me..as that im so lazy to go online to write it and post it..hmm..this weekend shud go get a journal!

enjoying

couldnt sleep tonite..dunno y..am listening to damien rice and savouring rose tea -bought from cameron highland..very nice song, very nice tea, serene envinronment..just a bit hot..not doing anything, just surf around, wasting time..maybe i need to unwind myself a bit..but i think i had been unwinding for some time...when will it be the time that i'm not gonna lazying around and start doing things that i shud be doing? kaishing! stop wasting time! get up, move ur butt and strive for ur life! (another part of me is saying, nvm le...so late d..tmr...tmr and tmr and tmr...) tmr is such a lazy word..phewww....i need some motivation!

im happy!

despites unhappy events happening around me, im still happy! coz happy overtake the unhappy stuff! buble is having this new nice song which makes my day as well.

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down
I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility
And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility
And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united
And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility
And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get
Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get
I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, loveI just haven't met you yet

but then i think i still prefer "two is better than one" by boys like girls. =)

The best thing in the world

What's the best thing in the world?
June-rose, by May-dewed impearled
sweet south wind, that's mean no rain
truth, not cruel to a friend
pleasure, not in haste to end
beauty, not self-decked and curled
till it's pride is over-plain
love, when so, u're loved again
what's the best thing in the world?
-- something out of it, I think

by Elizabeth Barrett Browning


read it when i was in the lrt and love it. =)

u r wonderful tonight

It's late in the evening
She's wondering what clothes to wear
She puts on her make up
And brushes her long blonde hair
And then she asks me
Do I look alright
And I say yes, you look wonderful tonight
We go a party
And everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady
That's walking around with me
And then she asks me
Do you feel alright
And I say yes, I feel wonderful tonight
I feel wonderful
Because I see the love light in your eyes
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize
How much I love you
It's time to go home now
And I've got an aching head
So I give her the car keys
She helps me to bed
And then I tell her
As I turn out the light
I say my darling, you were wonderful tonight
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight


one of the song that i love..by eric clapton..recently heard a new version by khalil fang..like the newer version better than the eric clapton's one..am wondering if there is this one day that someone will tell me that im wonderful tonight..someone that will love me for who i am..